Thank you all so much for your comforting words, they have really helped but at the same time I have not stopped crying when reading them. I know it is asking a lot but I so wish he had died in his sleep in his bed.
The last 4 years he had been in the vets a lot and had 4 GAs for different reasons so while he used to bark the last couple of years he just used to tremble. So I find it hard knowing that when I left him he would have been terrified.
And because he never really came round from the GA I agonize that he did not know that he was home.
His bed went with him in the garden but I have not been able to move anything else.
But I know you are right he knew he was loved and he brought us so much pleasure so I have got to remember the good times.
Thank you again.
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