So sorry, it is the worst decision to have to make. All I can say is to remember why you are doing this, Bailey is the most important consideration here, and it is clear that you are fully aware of this. There is no easy way to deal with this. I wish I could do or say something that would help. You know Bailey best, and you must trust your instincts, and try to see past your pain. Please be kind to yourself, you are in the situation from hell and have to deal with it as best you can. You will never be ready for it, that is a time I don't think exists. xx