Hello everyone,
Just thought I would introduce myself, it may be a bit long, sorry! I stumbled across this site looking for cocker breeders and reading up on cockers in general, why? Well, here goes ...
Just over 12 years ago I got my first cocker spaniel, Badger (middle name Albert!) a lovely blue roan boy. He lived with me on my own and went to my parents over the road who looked after him whilst I went to work. He accepted my now husband and when he was 4 accepted our first son no bother whatsoever, although I made sure he was always involved. We now have 3 children, 8, nearly 6 and 4 (in 2 weeks). He has been excellent with all of them, he has remained the loyal, playful dog he has always been and he has never been pushed out as the children came along, to me he was and still is my first baby!
However, he has been blind (cataracts) and deaf for some time now but manages great with this, it has gradually deteriorated over the last year and he gets around by smell, he has a great nose! He is never jumpy when stroked, he is the most beautiful dog anyone could ever wish for. His temperament and everything is excellent, he has always had a naughty streak in him, but thats just his personality! He hasnt been out for a walk for about 2 years because he doesnt want to go, he wont go out of the front door, I think it makes him feel insecure.
A couple of weeks ago he seemed to me to be in pain, walking backwards and going around in circles along with toileting on the kitchen floor. The vet said his time had come but I couldnt bear them to do it and told them I would have to make another appointment, he was shaking like mad, he knew where he was. I brought him home and he was back to his old self, he sleeps most of the time, but I can live with his blindness and deafness and he can too, we dont move the furniture around and hes fine. I rang the vet and explained that he didnt seem to be in pain anymore and she agreed he may be ok for a little while longer. Anyway, he stopped his walking backwards, etc but I dont suppose it will be for long, he was doing it again this afternoon.
He seems to lose his bearings sometimes, as if he is going a little senile. I cried for 2 days constantly when I took him to the vets, we have had such a happy life together, I will never find another dog as loving and great as what he has been to me and my family, he has been so loyal.
Anyway, now I have found this site I will probably be back most days, I find it really comforting looking through all the posts and threads on these boards.
I know his time will be up soon and it will be the worst time of my life, and no other dog will be able to replace him and the times that we have had together. I wasnt going to get another dog because I cant handle losing them, but I think I have decided now that we will. That is a hard decision in itself, I feel like I am not being loyal to him.
Sorry for the long first post, I have tears streaming down my face typing it, I suppose it is the reality of it writing it all down.
Thanks for listening
Sarah
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