Seventeen days since I lost Hollie and the tears still flow all day and every day. My cousin in America has persuaded me to book a flight to visit her so in three weeks time I'll be on my way. My two cousins over there are both in their eighties and who knows if I'll get to see them again so I'll put on a face and go. It won't be easy - and when I come back 2 weeks later I shall start my quest for two new cockers - which also won't be easy. All I want is my Hollie back but I know that can't be and I know it is what she would want me to do. Please say a prayer for me in my 'journeys' and I'll keep you posted.