Don't get down hearted that special little cocker will come your way. I had loads of dissapointments, I was searching from October till the following July, when I came across Breeze, fortunately for me I had the help of 'jaspersmom' & hollyd443 which I was thankful of, all three of us searching whatever we could.
I experienced the same situation with MT, I was sent an email requesting me to contact them about a young cocker, I had shown an interest in, the young lady that answered me first, told me, yes, I was an ideal candidate but I needed to speak to Sylvia, when I managed to contact Sylvia I was told no.
By the time I found Breeze I was full of apprehension, because withthe passing of time I didn't think it was every going to happen. My only advice is keep trying..