Oh my goodness, I am so VERY sorry to hear of your tragic loss. There is nothing I can say to ease the pain which must be just awful. All I can say, is that after losing my beloved Millie a year ago, and being adamant that I would NEVER have another dog, we did, last Wednesday, introduce Cassie into our home and she, after all I've said, is well on the way to capturing our hearts. I know this is no comfort right now, but all I'm saying is that although I would never have believed it, there will eventually be a chink of light at the end of this very dark tunnel. My heart goes out to you all.
Hugs and X's, Liz.