Just read your thread and don't know how I missed it.
My heart goes out to you for I too lost a beloved dog to Chronic renal failure and she too died in my arms. I have cried buckets reading this as it brought back all those memories and for me it was many years ago, but when you have an angel they are with you forever
Your pain will ease in time but the memories you cherish of him will stay forever.
Run free sweet Harmy.