I wish I could find the magic word to console you................but, I can't. It is absolutely heart breaking when you lose your doglet. Sounds like you lost your baby, just as I did, after surgery.....and it feels even more devastating because they leave you so suddenly.
Please know that in time you will feel able to think about Lola in a really positive way, remembering all the good times you shared together. I thought that day would never come.........but it has, and I often laugh about Lily's antics now.
When you see a rainbow, think of it as a visit from you baby. She is out of pain and at Rainbow Bridge now.
Run free little girl xxxxx