Oh my goodness Annclare, I have only just picked up your posts, and I am so very very sorry to hear that you have lost your darling Holly. I feel for you enormously as my OH and I lost our lovely Millie (aged 11) 5 weeks ago tomorrow, again to cancer (Osteosarcoma) in her lower jaw. We were devastated, and cannot talk about Millie without tears, so I do know how you must be feeling and my heart goes out to you.