Judith- i am going to write this for you and for Sam and then puff you into cyber space and keep you in my heart forever.
i never got to say that i love you. We have known each other for 30 years, since i was a kid, and you were my sisters friend.
We all went thru marriages,deaths and divorces together-shoes shopping doggies and Australia. what ahoot we had in those years.
Banjo your dog- what a fine dog he was
Coco- my dearest cocker who was killed
Sam- who used to wee bloody everywhere!!!!!
and now i have Roxy, who you have never met.
did you see my shoes at your service? especially for you-cost no more than usual, just a couple of hundred££££ i knew you'd go....... 'Ohh Susan.... they're soooooooo you'
d'you remember you'd say to ***(i can't bear to say his name) in a shoe shop. who do these remind you of?'
yep always me!!!
and i must remind you when my son was born
my sister held my son and you got the sick tray- you made me laugh that day and i thank you for that, remember you said, SHE gets the baby, i get the bloody sick bucket - oh my friend i miss you so.
and who reminds me of you my friend, only THE jonny mathis, you WERE jonny mathis, oh my lord if ever i hear him sing... it is you talking to me. i stop the car, i can't talk,i collapse to a heap. i weep for you my friend.
i'm so so sorry for your sadness that i couldn't fix for you.
i'm sorry i let you down, whatever anyone says, i KNOW i did, i will carry you in my heart always.
please forgive me.x
goodbye Judith God bless you and Sam.
goodbye.
