I haven't been on here for ages, I am so sad to read all about this, it is a choice I hate to have to make, we did with our lab, he had cancer and we decided enough was enough after 2 operations, he looked so sad and was in pain trying to do number 2 all the time and couldn't.
Please take care of yourself, the day will come and you will know it is the right one, we will be thinking of you xxx