You are all SO lovely, you've just made me cry again (but in a good way this time!)
Right, let me update you all.....
So yesterday morning I woke up to possibly the most stinky, wet, messy horrid crate ever! I swear she poo's more than an elephant! So I bathed her (again!) and then wrapped her in a towel and she fell asleep on me for about 3 hours. It suddenly struck me that maybe she is tired too. So we had a very quiet day, after her snooze I put her straight out for a wee which she did! Then she ate some food and came running in to me again for more cuddles. This is the most time we have spent together so that in itself is a break through.
I took her in to the garden for a game of fetch (not that she brings anything back lol!) I don't know if she can hear properly or if she's just a bit ignorant, because even when I call her loudly or make a really high pitched noise or squeak her toy she doesn't seem to notice at all, but she seemed to enjoy being outside with me, so that was nice.
I went to my slimming club last night so she was left in the care of my hubby and kids - who didn't bother watching her, so she wee'd indoors twice (I was soooo bloody cross with them!! Lazy monkeys!!)
but apart from that she was quite good.
I put her to bed last night with a folded blanket at one end of the crate and a pee pad at the other end. I went to bed at midnight and didn't bother getting up at all in the night!! I went down at 7 this morning to find one wee on the puppy pad (which she had tried to cover up with her blanket - so I guess she knows it is wrong if that makes sense!)
This morning I feel fresher, better and a lot more calm than before. It's still hard and I feel guilty for even having her in Moby's home, but she isn't going anywhere! I will see this through and eventually I hope I will find the friendship and love that I shared with Moby. I know it will be different - but maybe that's the way it has to be, so that I can move on and let Moby go properly.. God..... Lump in the throat again lol!
Can I ask you all what food you would recommend? At the mo I am trying to wean her off of the food the breeder raised her on. Honestly it's soooo gross! It's raw tripe mince mixed with a tinned food. The smell is awful!! I always fed Moby on Royal Canin which I am slowly introducing to Lily now mixed in with the other nasty stuff. Can't wait to get rid of the tripe lol!! Also, she is being fed 3 times a day and I try to not feed her after 6pm. Does that sound okay to you all? Any help is so greatfully received
Colette, thank you so very much for the offer of the play pen! How much would you like for it - and I wonder how much postage would be? What area do you live in? Possibly I could collect? You really are so very kind xx