so sorry to hear this.
i lost my beloved blue roan, Duke in the same way.
so i know exactly how you are feeling.
please dont blame yourself - easier said than done, i know.
he was with you for only a short time but during that time he gave you laughs and happy memories - and you did the same for him.
keep hold of those memories.
i am crying whilst writing - the pain does not go away - but it changes and the funny and good things will stand out - not the tragic
ending.
take care of yourself and the other doglets.
lots of love sharon xxx