I’m so sorry to hear this. Our Fern was 13 when she died last year. They certainly leave a big hole. I struggled so much for months, so many feelings. I wrote her a five page letter which did help quite a bit. For a long time I couldn’t think about her without bursting into tears, but now we can talk about the wonderful memories.
I’m popping in and out of COL again as we have a new addition coming in a few weeks. We are calling him Sam too!
I said I wouldn’t do it again as losing Fern was so painful, she was so poorly for the last six months, but a lovely litter came along, and Sam’s Dad is a descendent of Fern’s Dad so it feels right.
You will start to feel better, I’m proof that you will, if you told me just a few months ago I would get another I wouldn’t have believed you, but now I can’t wait.
I know it’s a cliche and won’t feel like it today, but time does heal, gently and subtly.
xxx