Day 11 post op/Day 4 home. Hey all,
Sorry for not updating for a couple of days, I've been feeling really disheartened about Lili's recovery. I don't think I realized how hard it would be when there's no veterinary nurses saying
"she's done X today" or
"she did Y earlier" and pointing out every little change in her abilities, so I'm finding myself just waiting for something to change and it feels like a change never comes...So the words
"this how life is now, forever..." kept swimming in my head and knocking my confidence in her recovery and my abilities to help heal her....
But tonight, I actually saw her lift her left hind leg and scratch herself behind the ear!
She hasn't done that since she's been home, at least not that I'm aware of. I saw her try to do it yesterday but either she lacked the strength or the coordination to do it, but tonight she did it. I got so excited by it I burst into tears and she stopped and starred at me like
"what the hell is wrong with you, woman?" haha! I really hope that's a good sign of progress...
Her right leg is struggling and not coming on as well as her left, which worries me. She's got some good reflexes there (I think, but I'm no expert) but when I stretch it out and push back to test stability it gives very easily, where as the right seems to hold well.
Took her to the vets today to get her stitches out. The nurses said she seems to be doing well. They saw her walking across the car park and agree that she's trying to get her legs going and her tail swishes away every second she's in the sling, but sadly not when she's lying down.
I've booked her in for her first hydro session tomorrow morning. Fingers crossed it all goes well. I'm going to try to get her in for laser therapy and acupuncture too, anything that might help her get back on all four paws. I can see how desperate she is to get back into her old ways and it hurts my heart that she can't do it. As soon as I open the pen door she rushes out as fast as her two (and a bit) legs can carry her and we have to hold her back to stop her racing all over the house.
She's so good with her physical therapy, but I'm not sure if I'm doing it with her enough. I spend about an hour and a half to two hours a day with her doing massage and passive movements with her. I feel like I could be doing more, but at the same time I'm worried that too much might not be a good thing either.
Erm...what else....Oh yeah, I actually managed to express her bladder yesterday, but unfortunately we've still had a few accidents. She won't go in any of her favourite spots, and I'm starting to think it's partly because she just wants to do everything BUT pee, and also because she's such an independent dog, and she's not really used to someone hovering over her while she goes. Plus the grim wet weather probably isn't helping either.
We have the back door open most of the time so she and our GSD tend to take themselves out to the toilet whenever they need, and she relies on him to ask if the door is shut (they would go outside together and pee in tandem, it's quite funny!) so I think her usual habits are hampering her in the toilet department. I want to try taking her out with our GSD but I'm scared to death something might happen to hurt her so I'm going to wait until she's (hopefully) a bit stronger and keep everything crossed that the toilet situation resolves itself once she's more mobile and can have her privacy again haha!
On a personal level, I'm still exhausted and drained of everything. Dreading the electricity/water bill coming in with all the extra laundry haha! Tonight is really the first night that I've left as if I could relax enough to watch a TV show or something just to zone-out for a little while. Hoping I don't live to regret it...
Here's a snap of her behind bars haha!

Huge thanks to everyone who has left messages of encouragement, support and advice.

I can't tell you how much it helps to know that people care and understand. Thank you for having faith in me and Lili, I really hope once hydro gets started I'll be able to share more positive progress with you all.