Thank you everyone for all your kind words and for the lovely PMs. At the moment I am finding it so difficult to know what to say, the pain is like nothing I have ever felt before and I miss Gari so much. We keep looking around for him, he was always just beside me, behind me or on me, we were hardly ever apart.
Gari was loved so much and he knew it, and he loved us in return. He was happy with the simplest of things, and if he was happy, we were happy. Rightly or wrongly, we made him the centre of our world, and apart from work, we didn't do anything that didn't involve or centre around Gari, so he has left a huge gap that can't be filled.
Because he was such a wonderful dog, we are thinking of taking on another rescue Cocker soon. OH wants to, but feels it would be betraying Gari, however I feel it is because of Gari that we would be able to do it, as he showed us what it is like to be loved and to love unconditionally.
We were honoured to have Gari in our lives, and not once did I ever regret that impulse decision to bring him home from the rescue centre. I am so glad he got his new house and garden, if only for a short time, and I enjoyed watching him enjoy it.
The time ahead is going to be so difficult, especially when OH goes back to work. I spent all my time talking to Gari, asking his advice on everything, telling him our plan for the day, and most of all cuddling him, and my arms ache to cuddle him now. The house is so empty without him and my heart is broken.
Thank you all again for your posts, they are bringing me comfort and helping me realise that I am not alone.
